System Downtime

I've been thinking what my life purpose, and I couldn't find the answer. This few weeks I've been so down, thinking of my unsolved problems, and there's way to many for me to bear. Feels like the burden in my shoulder getting heavier, its was fun when you were child and you don't have to worry and being stress with the problems its like there is no problem at all. But sadly we've grown up this far yet the problem is getting much bigger. As for now there's nothing go right, and when i said that my friend replied my with some joke "when nothings go right, you go left how bout that?" Hahaha!! I was laughing at the same time crying inside feel so empty in my heart, NOTHING its EMPTY. SO FOR NOW I CLOSE MY HEART for everything I couldn't find any solution to my tons of problem.